“I want u to find your father”. That was how my near 90 year old Grandfather started off our conversation. “Because he needs to know you are in the world”. “That’s a problem” “Why”? “Because, well, he’s dead” #sotheresthat. “Matters the diffrence, find his family, they need to know you”. “Mmmm, k”.
Da Hell? My Grandfather and I, no my family and I NEVER talk about my birth father. You know how people go look up their family so they can feel whole? Not me. I’m already whole. How is dustin up some raggady memories gonna make me feel better bout life?
Sigh. I don’t know. Yet, as I sat there listening to the dial tone, I knew I would do it. Because I always do what he wants. And b/c I think I understand why it was it is important to him.
I hope he is around to see it get done…..